Breathe like an Elephant...in water?

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul

my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

Wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before I come undone
save me from the nothing I've become

now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch

without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

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The first time I heard this song, it was attached to a sailing video ( Moth Sailing ---seriously kickass cool). ...but the song actually has a Spiritual Connection for me...and to this day, when I hear this, it's completely Spiritual in meaning for me...and makes me feel warm, energized and connected.

I'm reading a new book "Think of an Elephant" by Paul Bailey---and of all the many many books I've read over the years, this one...is like the words have been written to punctuate my thoughts...as disjointed as they may be...surreal.

I'll write more later, I've just gotten back from a whirlwind tour of Florida ---and a variety of stories among them - but getting up at 3:30 this morning to catch my flight has left me less than functional ---so I'm due for a nap and I'm compelled to paint. I feel it building deep within, and I've learned to recognize the futility in supressing it's expression.  I actually stopped by the art supply store to pick up a couple of things...when inspiration wells inside, it's not easily repressed ...and I simply go with the flow as the energy directs me. (ironically, the book talks about this too----so SO me)

This week in Austin, next in Seattle, then back to Ft Lauderdale/Miami and possibly a jaunt to the Bahamas...my home is within now...everywhere and nowhere - everything and nothing.

I am water today. Fluid. But my body is tired, mortal,  still learning to swim in ambiguity...and sans coffee...in need of some divine breath.

Breathe in to me....please.